Do you realize how pretentious you are to expect me to mold my entire life to yours despite you not making a move to or even wanting to try to help with mine.
You look from the outside and become paralyzed with fear of something that hasn’t happened or might not happen. How will anything ever happen to you if you have no will to progress and move forward.
If I were to slow you down, I’d deliberately do so. And yet here we are, looking at one another for long periods of time trying to read eachother’s mind.
You’ve shattered my opinion about you so easily. It went from someone stable and responsible, to someone who doesn’t recognize what they have or what they could possibly amount to. No ambition yet tries to be ambitious.
Believe in yourself. It took me so long to do so, to trust myself with all the storms that persist in my atmosphere. I barely have a raincoat or a poncho, I’ll stand in the rain until I get a cold until I finally need to wake up and find shelter.
My emotions flow so easily and terribly through me. I could never feel anything so small, it will always be large. At times it may feel so burdensome to even try and turn on my emotions, for who knows where they will carry me throughout the day.
My smile will always be with all teeth, and my anger will always furrow brow. I’ll no longer mask, and show my best self to a world that will never show itself as something other than a facade.
Transplants, Miami plastics, nepo babies or nepo adjacent, can cry wolf and whine about their problems. While I continue to work hard and build my foundation that will always be greater than the one before me.
I’ve always said I’d be great, and I’ll be more than that. No circumstance could change the path the universe has set for me. Your distance could never break something that has been constantly repairing and improving.
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